This shaking on the inside edging me to false desire
And it's tempting me to look right in my darkness
And this hole I've tried to fill with pure distraction
Escapist inaction
And i think it's time I faced these things myself
Myself
Not gonna run from this to mind numbing bliss
Gonna face this pain
Turn a loss to gain
Gonna keep my mind clear to search and find
The strength within
To resist and win
These voice, faces, hand me drops of laughter
Powdered joy
But they're only masks that crack and waste away
Am I the master of these things or will i be their slave
With time I know I'll change my circumstance
Circumstance
Not gonna run from this to mind numbing bliss
Gonna face this pain
Turn a loss to gain
Gonna keep my mind clear to search and find
The strength within
To resist and win
credits
from The Recalcitrant Colonial,
released November 11, 2011
written by Hugh Wilson and Tom Zano
Guitars by Tom Zano, Hugh did the rest.
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